I’ve realized that anything and everything I do in life is never enough. I’m never satisfied with any of my accomplishments and instead of taking the time to reflect on all I’ve done, I stress and get depressed about everything I HAVENT done. As I write this blog, I’m on the bus to my first day of film school at UCLA. It’s a dream that I’ve had for years and now that it’s finally happen, I feel as though I’m not as grateful as I should be. For some reason, once I accomplish something I tend to devalue it immediatley. If I run a marathon, I didn’t do it fast enough or because I didn’t do the bike marathon as well then a simple marathon just isn’t enough. I’m well aware of how crazy I sound writing that completing a marathon isn’t really a big deal but what more can you expect from the boy that thought skydiving was boring as hell.
I’ve decided that this year, I’m gonna take a moment to sit back and ackowledge all the fantastic things that I’ve done thus far. I will celebrate them, analyze them and grow from them. Everything we do is a reflection of ourselves that brings us one step closer or away from our dreams. I intend to do everything in my power to continue heading towards my dreams. In a strange way, I feel as though maybe this feeling of not doing enough may be a good thing because I’ll always strive for bigger and better things in hopes that I’ll finally be happy.
I’m gonna end this blog by starting to be positive.
In 10th grade I was on the verge of dropping out of high school.
In 11th grade I never wanted to or thought I’d ever get into a good college
In 12th grade I got into Northwestern AND UCLA
College Year 1- I began attending my dream school at UCLA
Joined the Daily Bruin and have had the pleasure of interviewing hundreds of my heroes and inspirations.
I got to make TWO amazing short films with my brother/best friend
College Year 2- Survived taking Spanish for a full year.
Continued making dozens of segments including one on homeless people which changed my life.
Dreamed about getting into the UCLA film school
College Year 3- on the bus to UCLA
Stressed about my brother making the short film deadline for the Sundance Film Festival. He’s submitting our film Purge which we made in less than a month but was the work of over 7 years. Fingers crossed. I’m living my dreams but they’ve only just begun!
-N

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